The electro-goth collaboration between programmer Ian Reyes (pictured above,
right) and vocalist Scott Francis (pictured above, left) consistently delivers electronic
dance music steeped in pop sensibility. The duo’s engaging multi-media live show is
out-done only by the vibrance of their songs on record. Since their inception, CN2R have
independently produced three full length albums, appeared on three internationally distributed
compilations, and shared a stage with acts including My Life with the Thrill Kill Kult, Pigface
The Crüxshadows, Croc Shop, Bella Morte, Chris Connelly, Meg Lee Chin, Ego Likeness
Combichrist, Anders Manga, Genitorturers, Orgy, Type O Negative, and Ministry.

Beginning in 1999 as an industrial-rock outfit, Collapse into Reason have since honed a sound that
is simultaneously morose and upbeat. Forming in the midst of what was then a flourishing heavy metal
scene in New England, CN2R gained recognition by virtue of their danceable beats and irresistible
melodies. With the independent release of the first full-length album, the band found themselves
playing more often in regional goth/industrial clubs than in local rock venues. The follow-up album,
Letters Never Sent, was both a farewell to the band’s rock roots as well as a means of settling
in to their new positions as favorites of the area’s dark dance scene.

Today you can hear the fruit of these years in transition. With all the benefits of lessons learned in the
studio and on the stage, Reyes and Francis now offer up their most well-focused and appealing material
to date, Electromantic. Whether on record or in performance, CN2R present a studied alternative to
the comparatively staid strands of electronic music pervading today’s gothic and industrial culture.

 

• Discography •

• Official Releases •


Electromantic (CiR-03 - 2005)

Track Listing:
Click on linked song titles for lyrics

1. Finola Pale (Scene From A Film Noir)

(Francis / Reyes)

"A stimulus is something that arouses a physiological
Or psychological response
"

Something in the way you move
Whenever I am near

I felt your touch
Receptors sending signals to my head
Impulses thrust
Along my axon's bulbs the current jumps

It all begins and ends with electricity
Our nerves receive and send in co-complicity
Your muscles all contract whenever I am near
And my heart starts to expand
It's in the atmosphere

Information tossed
Blindly from my senses to my stare
Mixed signals crossed
Sexual tension charging through the air

It all begins and ends with electricity
Our nerves receive and send in co-complicity
Your muscles all contract whenever I am near
And my heart starts to expand
It's in the atmosphere

"Neurons carry messages in the form of electrical signals
Called nerve impulses
To create a nerve impulse your neurons have to be excited
"

It all begins and ends with electricity
Our nerves receive and send in co-complicity
Your muscles all contract whenever I am near
And my heart starts to expand
It's in the atmosphere

"Every square centimeter of human skin contains sensory receptors
200 for pain
15 for pressure
6 for cold
Yet only 1 for warmth
"

2. Gotham

(Francis / Reyes)

The clock strikes ten and I begin
To fall away from this old fear
In this place I can't escape
This ringing in my ears

Another night in transit
Desperate hours I'm wringing up my hands
I can't shake this cold that clings just like an old coat
Lonely streets awakened
With the sound of taxis rushing by
In the shadows I don't seem to feel so alone

The city's rushed commotion it's haunting me
A million souls in motion it's haunting me
The sinners' lost devotion it's haunting me
It's haunting me

The clock strikes ten and I begin
To fall away from this old fear
In this place I can't escape
This ringing in my ears

I hear the reverie
Staggering bodies, spirits all imbibed
Spilling out from doors that glow the night electric

The city's rushed commotion it's haunting me
A million souls in motion it's haunting me
The sinners' lost devotion it's haunting me
It's haunting me

The clock strikes ten and I begin
To fall away from this old fear
In this place I can't escape
This ringing in my ears

Parting words are whispered
A stolen embrace, a fleeting flash of smile
Then begins the solemn journey back to my home
Another night falls victim
Six a.m. time to greet the day
I collapse into my bed to sleep away all this pain

To sleep away all this pain
To sleep away all this pain
To sleep away all this pain

3. My Revenant

(Francis / Reyes)

Through all my dark days it never left me
That feeling so strange cold eyes upon me
A chilling wind, a breathless gait, and still it stays
Sometimes I swear that I can almost see your face

Are you still here with me?
Standing in the shadows waiting patiently
For that fateful day when my troubled soul flies free
When I break this mortal coil and we can dance away

Sometimes in the dead of night I feel you near
It startles me awake gripped by this fear
In bitter cold with wondrous eyes I search the air
For signs of hope; a lost embrace or a plaintive stare

Are you still here with me?
Standing in the shadows waiting patiently
For that fateful day when my troubled soul flies free
When I break this mortal coil and we can dance away eternity
And we can dance away eternity
And we can dance away

I'll be there when my troubled soul flies free
When I break this mortal coil and we can dance away eternity
And we can dance away eternity
And we can dance away

I can't see how heaven is so bare
That there's no place to rest your head
No comfort far beyond the grave

4. Our Little Secret

(Francis / Reyes)

Another hour to go
Anticipation is baiting me
Think I'm about to burst
This waiting is the worst

Hey I hope nobody sees us
When you put your arms around me
And you smile
It's our little secret

And I have to confess
I'm such a mess when I'm alone
I want you to stay right here with me
You're all I need

You seem so composed
And me? I'm just a mess
I wonder how you do it
I can't control myself

Hey I hope nobody sees us
When you put your arms around me
And you smile
It's our little secret

This is all that I've been waiting for
It's so much more
It's all of that and so much more
It's so much more

And I have to confess
I'm such a mess when I'm alone
I want you to stay right here with me
You're all I need
And I have to confess
I'm such a mess when I'm alone
I want you to stay right here with me
You're all I need

And I have to confess I'm such a mess
I want you to stay right here with me

5. Another Walking Wounded

(Francis / Reyes)

He opened up his heart and let her in
Though she never asked he gave her everything
Now it comes to pass he was played the fool
She is gone and he's not sure what to do

So rise above and take one breath at a time
Don't look back and take one day at a time

Another trust has been betrayed
Another faith has been misplaced
Another innocence now lost
Another walking wounded

So rise above

She always hoped one day that it would end
Though it finally did she could not understand
How had fourteen years gone by and no-one knew
He is gone but she's not sure what to do

So rise above and take one breath at a time
Don't look back and take one day at a time

Another trust has been betrayed
Another faith has been misplaced
Another innocence now lost
Another walking wounded
And we all walk on
And we all walk on

Another trust has been betrayed
Another faith has been misplaced
Another innocence now lost
Another walking wounded

Another trust has been betrayed
And we all walk on
Another faith has been misplaced
Another innocence now lost
And we all walk on
Another walking wounded
And we all walk on
And we all walk on

6. In The Waning Light

(Francis / Reyes)

One moment in time, one breathe for one word
One lingering crime, one choice so absurd

Not unlike the clouds in the sky
One minute they stay, the next they roll by
Not unlike the clouds in the sky
One minute we stay, the next we say goodbye

One chance to be heard
One moment sublime, one road to reverse

Hasn't it been long enough
For us to forgive all we've done?
Hasn't it been long enough?
It's time to forgive, not forget, but move on

Standing here in the waning light
Your face it seems so bittersweet
Standing here in the waning light
Your taste it seems so bittersweet

Not unlike the clouds in the sky
One minute they stay, the next they roll by
Not unlike the clouds in the sky
One minute we stay, the next we say goodbye

Standing here in the waning light
Standing here in the waning light

Hasn't it been long enough
For us to forgive all we've done?

7. The Empty Set

(Francis / Reyes)

There is a hole you cannot fill
It's not about choice or free will
It's all designed to gratify
But you feel empty deep inside

All the things you see on the picture tube
All the things you need cause they tell you to
You don't even understand just why
You buy and buy and buy

Tell me how did your life come to this?
A money clip replaced your shaking fist

Are there more toys you can buy today?
And will it take all the pain away
And if you die with the most toys man
The system lied; you can't win
Are there more toys you can buy today?
And will it take all the pain away
The greed you need to feed
Control, confuse, consume

It is that voice inside your head
That appetite that must be fed
That overwhelming urge to spend
You buy and buy and buy

Tell me how did your life come to this?
A money clip replaced your shaking fist

Are there more toys you can buy today?
And will it take all the pain away
And if you die with the most toys man
The system lied; you can't win
Are there more toys you can buy today?
And will it take all the pain away
The greed you need to feed
Control, confuse, consume

Are there more toys you can buy today?
And will it take all the pain away
And if you die with the most toys man
The system lied; you can't win
Are there more toys you can buy today?
And will it take all the pain away
The greed you need to feed
Control, confuse, consume, consume, consume

8. The Day Forever Changed

(Francis / Reyes)

I never hoped to see that look in your eyes
As if the sight of me only brought you pain
So it's come down to this
Awkward moments spent in silence
On the day forever changed

And you promised me that
You'd always be there
No matter how hard the climb
Now that push comes to shove
You just give up on us
The punishment fits the crime

Passions burn but some they fade
And forever and after they don't seem to matter
On the day forever changed

I never thought that I could let you down
As if you'd forgive any slight mistake
So it's come down to this
Quiet anger bathed in longing
On the day forever changed

Passions burn but some they fade
And forever and after they don't seem to matter
On the day forever changed
Forever and then one day
Forever and then one day

And you promised me that
You'd always be there
No matter how hard the climb
Now that push comes to shove
You just give up on us
The punishment fits the crime

Passions burn but some they fade
And forever and after they don't seem to matter
On the day forever changed
Forever and then one day
Forever and then one day forever changed

Passions burn but some they fade
And forever and after they don't seem to matter
On the day forever changed
Forever and then one day…
And forever and after they don't seem to matter
On the day forever changed
Forever and then one day
Forever and then one day
And then one day
And then one day

9. Chemical Sin

(Francis / Reyes)

It's just a chemical reaction

Soft and low, she moans, then slowly exhales
Gently rolling over and then right back again
The scent of her skin dances throughout the air
And I take it all in, completely ensnared

It's just a chemical reaction
Only pheromones and endorphins
That's what I tell myself
That's what I tell myself

But it's a lie that I'm drowning in
Chemical sin
Chemical sin
But it's a lie that I'm drowning in
It's simple

Muscle and bone she roams, and slowly extends
Her arms reaching out to me, pulling me back in
Is it thought or impulse?
I can't quite comprehend
But I keep giving in
I keep giving in

It's just a chemical reaction
Only pheromones and endorphins
It's just a chemical reaction
Only pheromones and endorphins

I'm drowning in this chemical sin

10. The Exile

(Francis / Reyes)

It's oh so dark in here
But not so dark that I can't see
Your ruby lips, your tattered dress
That scarlet mark on your sleeve
The lines around your eyes
Are running down your cheek
Your wings are bent and broken
A fallen angel in defeat

Hiding from everything, hiding behind bent wings
Hiding from everything, hiding behind bent wings

Fallen angel
How I wish that I could hold your hands to help you fly
How I wish that I could hold your head to help you cry
How I wish that I could know all of the reasons why
Why you fell back to earth

Your voice is crystal clear
If only you'd decide to speak
To let it out, to scream and shout
About all your hopes and dreams
The torment that you hide
The heavy burden you can't relieve
Only serves to weigh you down
A fallen angel in defeat

Fallen angel
How I wish that I could hold your hands to help you fly
How I wish that I could hold your head to help you cry
How I wish that I could know all of the reasons why
Why you fell back to earth

Hiding from everything, hiding behind bent wings
Hiding from everything, hiding behind bent wings

I'll never know the reasons why you fell to earth back from the sky
Was it hate for Adam, or was it hate for Eve
Or was it simply love alone, a love that made you leave

11. Still

(Francis / Reyes)

Walking down this lonely road
With no place to call my own
Wherever you are is where I belong

Wherever you are feels just like home
I'll stand out in the rain until you show your face
Just once more let me feel your warm embrace
It feels like home
Wherever you are feels just like home

No matter how far, I'll go
And when I get there I'll know
Wherever you are is where I belong
Wherever you are feels just like home

Wherever you are feels just like home
Wherever you are feels just like home
I'll stand out in the rain until you show your face
Just once more let me feel your warm embrace
It feels like home
Wherever you are feels just like home

No matter where my life may roam
Nor how heavy the load
Wherever you are is where I belong

Wherever you are feels just like home
Wherever you are feels just like home
Wherever you are…



Letters Never Sent (CiR-02 - 2003)

Track Listing:
Click on linked song titles for lyrics

1. Patience, Please

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

No she's not the kind that talks
So if you have to ask
She'll only hide her helplessness
By trying to make you laugh

Patience always looks away
She always seems so distant
She never knows just what to say
When words offer no consolation
She says she needs to dance today
To try and forget her frustration
She never knows just what to say
Patience, please

She's wearing her favorite dress again
And wonders aloud if she just felt it rain

Patience needs to dance today
To try and forget her frustrations
She never knows just what to say
Patience, Please

Out there on the floor
Out among the crows
In-between the flashing lights
Between the walls of sound
She can be herself
Just for a little while
It all seems to fade away
It all falls behind

She closes her eyes and feels it all just fall away
2. Porcelain

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

Not quite rubenesque, she's not a classic waif
Almost over-exposed, full of negative space
So playful, yet sincere, so fragile as she spins
I watch her painted tears, and lose myself in them
My sweet marionette

Porcelain, her skin so fair
Painted eyes have been applied
Subtle brushstrokes mark her hair

Draped in silk and lace, the color of vermouth
Her darkened features gleam
The lines so sharp and smooth
So fluid and reposed, so elegant and chaste
I'm caught up in this air, I can't avert my gaze
My sweet marionette

With painted eyes of porcelain
Still she keeps on spinning
With painted eyes of porcelain
Still she keeps on spinning

My sweet marionette
3. The Hunger

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

The hunger it ebbs and tides
The heat I feel it starts to rise
Burning me up in its grip
Feeling myself start to slip

I'm amazed
And I feel so alive
Unrestrained
And I feel so alive

Just a taste, a fleeting glimpse
Of ecstasy, or sacredness
You give to me the sweetest gift
I'll drink it all like wine from your lips

I'll drink it in
And I feel so alive

This passion that's gripping me
I've lost all sense of purity
I feel on fire I want to scream
This damn disease that's draining me

I'll drink it in
I'm amazed
And I feel so alive
I'll drink it in
I'm amazed
4. One Word (Deflected)

Words: Francis
Music: Miller, Reyes, Francis

There is a rapture that I've heard
Comes with the aching
Though not a solitary piece I've yet to find
And if a touch upon my skin betrays the waking
Of your distress, then by all means,
Please, come inside

Share with me

I'd gladly pay whatever price
Could never do, but might suffice
To ease the burden of the weight one word contains

As muscles move you're forming words
and I am listening
To cruel intentions that are more or less denied
Though the extend of your intent might be debated
The air is thick and can be cut up with a knife

Cut it free

Just don't define it

One word tossed about with unbridled joy
finds shape, and then an edge, then finds the door
5. Redirection

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

I'd rather be alone
I'd rather never know
I'd rather be all by myself
I'd rather bey alohne
All by myself

I know that all things must change
When circumstances dictate nothing stays the same
So if you go, if we have to separate
I don't want to understand
I just want to forget your face

I know that we can't fear this change
Through all these things we hate
Tenderness remains
So if you go, if we have to separate
Know that I'll still be there
but I just don't want to know his name

If I swim against the tides
Leaving all of this behind
Leaving secrets unrevealed
I'd rather not know how it feels to be betrayed

I just don't want to know his name
Just don't define it

Faced with this choice, I think I'd rather be alone
I'll take my wounded pride
and leave the rest unknown
Faced with consequences and tides I can't surmount
Avoiding obstacles I'd rather do without this pain
6. Systems' Overload

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

It was just another day
With nothing quite out of place
I felt the same way
That I had the day before
Walking down familiar streets
Familiar sights, familiar scenes
A place for everything
And everything in its place

"Data input required"

Perhaps it was the normalcy
The blue sky or the greenest tree
I'm not quite sure just what it was
But everything started to change
The streets became unnatural
And it was almost laughable
I might have broken down right then and there
If it wasn't for the fear

"Involuntary response detected"

Coming apart at the seams

This is so unreal

"Operator error: unable to process data rquest
Initiating emergency shut down procedures"


I want to jump out of my skin

This is so surreal
7. One Word (Reflected)

Words: Francis
Music: Reyes, Francis

There is a rapture that I've heard
Comes with the aching
Though not a solitary piece I've yet to find
And if a touch upon my skin betrays the waking
Of your distress, then by all means,
Please, come inside

Share with me

I'd gladly pay whatever price
Could never do, but might suffice
To ease the burden of the weight one word contains

As muscles move you're forming words
and I am listening
To cruel intentions that are more or less denied
Though the extend of your intent might be debated
The air is thick and can be cut up with a knife

Cut it free

Just don't define it

One word tossed about with unbridled joy
finds shape, and then an edge, then finds the door

8. Breathe

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

The light danced in your eyes
Then reflected back to me
I saw myself beside you aging gracefully

You breathed in, and I sighed
And the world seemed right again
Lying next to me
Lying still this naked form
Lying still here on the floor
Lying next to me Ijust can't believe
That you'd ever choose to be with someone
Someone like me

You breathe in again and I'll sigh

Safe inside your smile I want to be everything
And I don't want to share your breath
With anyone ever again
I know it's selfish but I don't care
Just lie here with me
Just lie here with me and breathe

You lift my spirits with your smile
All my darkest days betrayed for a little while
For just a little while

If I sigh and you breathe in
Then the world will seem right again

Everything in my world that I ever cared for
Everything in my world that I ever yearned for

I never felt more beautiful
You never seemed more beautiful
In your eyes and when you breath
I like the man I seem to be
9. Mise-en-scene

Words: Francis
Music: Reyes

The phone rang:
I answered it and found her voice on the line

"What are you doing?"

"Nothing at all"

"Would you like some company?"

"Of course"

And then it began: the sudden intoxication of all of
my senses. With racing heart, pumping blood, in
breathless anticipation, I prepared for her arrival.

"Everything will be perfect. Everything will be fine.
Everything will be fine"


When she arrived, I led her upstairs. As I turned on
some music, she embraced me from behind.
As she kissed my back, I held her hands and closed
my eyes. I felt complete.

"Everything will be perfect. Everything will be fine.
Everything will be fine"


We undressed and collapsed into the bed, overcome
by emotion. Two forms without boundaries;
intertwined, blurred, a blend.
Afterwards I held her in my arms while she slept.
I watched the sunrisethrough the fan in the window,
knowing it would be the last that we shared

"Everything will be perfect. Everything will be fine.
Everything will be fine"


When she awoke she dressed herself.
I led her to the door, and she said goodbye.
I haven't slept well since.
10. Epilogue

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

Standing on the brink
Staring into the void
Should I thrust myself within?
Or hold out for the chance of joy?

I guess I still have hope
Though plagued by bitterness
I'll fight this emptiness with hope

I guess I still have hope

I will wear my scars
And wear them on my sleeve
Right next to my heart
And hope for a reprieve

Still a smile remains

These memories I cherish
Some happy and some sad
I wouldn't give them up
They've made me who I am

Still a smile remains

And I have you to thank for that



Collapse into Reason (CiR-01 - 2001)

Track Listing:
Click on linked song titles for lyrics

1. Requiem

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

I speak your name out like a prayer
I speak your name out like a prayer
Some dreams are better left undreamt
Some words are better left unsaid
When it all fell apart I tried
I’m so sorry, I’m sorry

I speak your name out like a prayer
I speak your name out like a prayer
Some things I wish you’d never seen
Some lies I wish never came between
When it all fell apart I tried
I’m so sorry

I speak your name out like a prayer and I live with my regret
I saw the pain held in your stare and I can’t seem to forget
Cherished moments in time that fade, slowly leaving me
I’ll sing a requiem for the damned, though it’s killing me

Heal me - absolution is all I crave
Heal me - forgiveness for all my sins
Heal me - and I’ll take this to the grave
Chanting your name with cracked lips

I speak your name out like a prayer and I live with my regret
I saw the pain held in your stare and I can’t seem to forget
Cherished moments in time that fade, slowly leaving me
I’ll sing a requiem for the damned, though it’s killing me

Heal me - absolution is all I crave
Heal me - forgiveness for all my sins
Heal me - and I’ll take this to the grave
Chanting your name with cracked lips

I speak your name out like a prayer and I live with my regret
I saw the pain held in your stare and I can’t seem to forget
Cherished moments in time that fade; slowly leaving me
I’ll sing a requiem for the damned, though it’s killing me

A requiem for the damned


2. In Sickness

Words: Francis and Nic Z
Music: CN2R

Insects crept into my heart
I’m sick of it falling apart
I’m sick of it leaving these marks
I’m sick of the whispers from blades
I’m sick of it falling away

Sadness fell into my arms
I’m sick of this wretched machine
I’m sick of this wretched disease
I’m sick of it making me bleed

I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect
I'm losing myself in this
This place where you don't exist

So long without you I'm lost
So long without you I'm lost
I'm losing myself in this
This place where you don't exist

Twitch and turn and show me
That I’m nothing more than your servant
After all this time forget me
For I know that’s all you want
And I am distant when you talk
Because my ears betray me
I’m on my knees
And something needs to change
Before the quiet kills it all

I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
I cannot dissect what you inject
But I can die

3. Stigmata for the Fallen

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

It’s just another day

I wake up afraid to open my eyes
To find the world has changed
Leaving me behind again
This night will never end

A hunger that I can’t satiate
I wake up betrayed by this gift

It’s just another day

I wake up betrayed by this sweet gift
Every joy that I possessed has been replaced
By an ugly stain, such an ugly stain

It’s ending, I’m descending
When I can fall no farther
This night will still bring me down
It’s ending, I’m descending
When I can fall no farther
This night will still bring me down

Another day, another nameless face
And I will use them all, to try and ease my pain
Another place, another nameless face
And I will use them all, to try and ease my pain

My pain

It’s ending, I’m descending
When I can fall no farther
This night will still bring me down
It’s ending, I’m descending
When I can fall no farther
This night will still bring me down

Another day, another nameless face
And I will use them all, to try and ease my pain
Another place, another nameless face
And I will use them all, to try and ease my pain

It’s ending, I’m descending
When I can fall no farther
This night will still bring me down
It’s ending, I’m descending
When I can fall no farther
This night will still bring me down
It’s ending, I’m descending
When I can fall no farther
This night will still bring me down
It’s ending, I’m descending
When I can fall no farther
This night will still bring me down

4. Numb

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

There is no soul
In this machine that stands before me
Your eyes they stare right through me
There is no warmth in your touch
Your gaze
So cold, it’s lifeless, empty
I don’t think you ever knew me
But I let you in and for that I guess I’ll pay

This place and everything around me
Does nothing but remind me
Of every move I made in vain
This taste in my mouth that you gave me
This fire that consumes me
So much bitterness gone to waste

And I feel nothing, I’ve become numb
Do I have you to thank or you to blame?
And I feel nothing, I’ve become numb
Do I have you to thank or myself to blame?

Beholden to you I was lost
This flood of emotion - I was swept up
Looking back I have myself to blame
But I can still hate you

I’m not okay, I’ve become numb
I’m not okay, I hate what you have done to me

Numb

Beholden to you I was lost
In this flood of emotion I was swept up
Looking back I have myself to blame
But I can still hate you

I’m not okay, I’ve become numb
I’m not okay, I hate what you have done to me

Numb

I’ve become numb
I’ve become numb
I’ve become numb
I’ve come undone

5. Disconnected (Yet Self-Aware)

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

Collapsing from weight that drags me down
Wakening with eyes recently found
Forsaken but I am reaching out
Disconnect - my shadow’s cast in doubt

I can’t believe what I see
I can’t trust what I feel
So I turn from this in disbelief
And disconnect deep inside of me

Uninvolved acutely self-aware
Overflow all that was hard to bear
Ignorance played out from foolish pride
Vanity revealing what was denied

I can’t believe what I see
I can’t trust what I feel
So I turn from this in disbelief
And disconnect deep inside of me

When my defenses were low - disconnected
Holy trinity mind, body, and soul - disconnected
Laid out to bare for ink to dry
You wrote your name and I wrote mine

Spiraling - control, free will subside
Leveling facades to hide behind
Sanity an echo once possessed
Rationale in blindness was repressed

I can’t believe what I see
I can’t trust what I feel
So I turn from this in disbelief
And disconnect deep inside of me

When my defenses were low - disconnected
Holy trinity mind, body, and soul - disconnected
Laid out to bare for ink to dry
You wrote your name and I wrote mine

And two have become one
And I can’t tell where you end and I begin

It is a blend
It is a blend

And roots that run deep
Can become bittersweet
And hard to separate
Once trust has been betrayed

So I’ll disconnect
So I’ll disconnect
So I’ll disconnect
So I’ll disconnect

I will disconnect
I will disconnect
I will disconnect
I’ll disconnect

6. My Empathy Misplaced

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

Everything in my life ends in pain

Everything offered up for my praise
I find lacking in some hidden way
There is no bond or loyalty I can’t break
And I perceive your trust in me as a mistake

I don’t know just why it is
You’d want to empathize with my suffering
When all my empathy has been misplaced
And I have nothing left inside-I can’t be saved

Deep inside it seems
This false monopoly
Of pain that I possess
Is strengthened when repressed

Everything in my life ends in pain
I have lost everything I thought I had gained
My mistrust has only served to isolate
The emotions I belie – I feel ashamed

I don’t know just why it is
You’d want to empathize with my suffering
When all my empathy has been misplaced
And I have nothing left inside – I can’t be saved

Deep inside it seems
This false monopoly
Of pain that I possess
Is strengthened when repressed

My empathy misplaced
My empathy misplaced
I know I cannot be saved

Deep inside it seems
This false monopoly
Of pain that I possess
Is strengthened when repressed

My empathy misplaced
My empathy misplaced
I know I cannot be saved

I have no faith
7. Coil (Recoiled Faith)

Words: Francis and Nic Z
Music: CN2R

I say enslave me if you want
It’s what you need
I know you long for that
You twist and distort me
Transparent, your motives are
Even with this blood about my face
Yet with this blood

I can’t help you
I will only let you down
I can’t help you
I will only let you down
In nomine, you can see
That I’m falling to pieces
So hope give me strength
And let me live through this
Even with these scars from my disgrace
Yet with these scars

I can’t help you
I will only let you down
I can’t help you
I will only let you down

Down

In nomine, I must fall to my knees
Because I’m tired and bleeding
And I’ll only let you down

Down

I can’t help you
I will only let you down
vI can’t help you
I will only let you down

I will only let you fall
I’ll let you go, I’ll let this fall away
I will only let you fall
I’ll let you go, I’ll let this fall away
I will only let you fall
I’ll let you go, I’ll let this fall away
I will only let you fall away
I’ll let you slip away

8. Pretty In Pink
9. The Cleansing

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

I feel dirty, violated
Dried up inside, bitter, jaded
I’m firmly entrenched in this
Firmly entrenched in...

Wash it all away
Take, from me, my sin
Wash it down the drain
In the cleansing

In the cleansing
In the cleansing
I’m firmly entrenched in this
Firmly entrenched in...

Wash it all away
Take, from me, my sin
Wash it down the drain
In the cleansing

Grateful for the grace of man
Lead me not to temptation
Grateful for the grace of man
The cleansing; my salvation

I feel dirty, violated
Dried up inside, bitter, jaded
I’m firmly entrenched in this
Firmly entrenched in...

Wash it all away
Take, from me, my sin
Wash it down the drain
In the cleansing

Grateful for the grace of man
Lead me not to temptation
Grateful for the grace of man
The cleansing; my salvation

Wash it all away
Take, from me, my sin
Wash it down the drain
In the cleansing
10. Vacant

Words: Francis
Music: CN2R

Alone here, with my thoughts alone
I’m dealing with the overflow
A constant stream of speculation
That I can’t seem to justify

So why did I try?
Before I had started, I had lost
So why did I try?
Why did I, and at what cost?

At what cost?
Tainted by this circumstance
Baited by a stolen glance
I was lost

So why did I try?
Before I had started, I had lost
So why did I try?
Why did I, and at what cost?

Take this blood from my hands
Take this blood from my hands

I have no use for this here

This feeling, so deceiving
This feeling; I’m awash with disgust
I’m sinking; I can’t stop thinking
I’m sinking; what happened to my trust?

Take this blood from my hands
This feeling, so deceiving
Take this blood from my hands
This feeling; I’m awash with disgust
Take this blood from my hands
I’m sinking; I can’t stop thinking
Take this blood from my hands
I’m sinking; what happened to my trust?

What happened to my trust?

11. In Sickness >>Temporal Lesions<<
12. Disconnected (Yet Self-aware) >>West of Humacao<<
13. My Empathy Misplaced >>To the Pain<<
14. Coil (Recoiled Faith) >>Four Beats Slithering<<
15. The Cleansing >>The Mean Reds<<


3-song demo (CiR-00 - 1999) (out of print)

Track Listing:

1. In Sickness
2. Faith
3. 9 Fingers



• Compilation Appearances •


A Tribute to Tool (bigeye4372-2, 2004)

Song Contributed: Ænema


Cleopatra Records Presents: A Tribute to Tool (cleo1188-2, 2002)

Song Contributed: Ænema



Eclipse Records Presents: Metal Underground 2000 (eclipse9903, 2000)

Song Contributed: In Sickness